Mandy自从和老朋友们重新见面后,整个人陷入了一种迷幻状态,似乎她虽然在这个世界上好好地活着,但似乎有一半魂魄留在了某个遥远的,偏僻的,古早的,隔离的,陌生的,熟悉的时空里。
洛可嘉第一个察觉到她的迷离疑惑,似乎她总是在问,“我是谁”、“我为什么在这里”、“这是哪里”、“这些人都是哪来的”、“原来的我呢?”
走丢了……
她的每一个微笑都在说,“我好困惑”、“我错了吗”、“我怎么办”……
在孙先生拜访后第二天,Mandy摔了Nichole心爱的大熊猫勺子,第三天她忘了去接Oscar放学,第四天她忘了烧饭,那两天洛妈和洛老爹由热旺陪着去费城玩儿了。
洛可嘉忍无可忍,决定跟Mandy好好谈谈。
“Youarenotyourselfthesedays.”saidLock,lookingdirectlyintohereyes.
“Idon“tquietfolloyou.”returnedMandy,turningthepagesinfrontofherratherrampantly.
“Youantedtofindyourlostselfasateenager,didn“tyou?”Lockasruthless.
“That“ssountrue.”Mandyouldnotlookatherhusbandintheeye.
“annaatalk?”lockretreatedalittlebitbuthisgroundserefirmlyheld.
“Theyhaven“tchangedmuchsinceelastsaoneanother.”atlastMandydecidedtospilloutallthataslingeringonhermind——bearingtheeightisearisome.
“They?homintheorlddoyoureferto,thosehoarenotennabledtoloveoracquireafamily?”Lockdemanded.
“Don“tbesorude.”Mandyasfinallycheeringupalittlebit.
Locklaughed,“Ibetmostofthemouldtradehattheypossessforthelifeyouareliving,evenifthereisahandicappedmaninthepicture.”
Mandysmiledforthefirsttime,“Nonsense.Hodareyou.....”
Lockpickeduphismobile,“Minerva,homanyphotosofthekidshaveegot?”
TheAIpoppedupfromnohereonthescreen,“Sinceyouaskedsir,thefamilyalbumhastakenupatleastthreequartersofthestorage,hichmeansthereareoveronethousandphotostotally,andthatseriouslylaggestheprocessingspeedofthemobile.That“shyIsuggestdeletinghalf......”
“Thanks,Minerva.That“shatIneedtolearnforthemoment.”LocknoddedtotheAI,asifshecouldsee.Actullyshedidnoticethat,sheavedbackhappilyandasoff.
LocksaidtoMandyassincerelyaspossible,“Ibelievehatyouhavealreadyonedeighsmuchmorethanhatyouthoughthadlost.”
Mandylamented,“Hodoyouknothisisthebestforme?Icouldhaveledanotherlife.....”l
“Idon“tthinkit“stherightattitudeforlife.Itseemsyouillalaysberegrettingoveryoureachandeverychoiceordecision.”Thereasanedgetohisvoice,buthestayedcool,“Stopcomparingithothers“livesandstopmoaningformore.Thefishermanandhisifeshouldhavebeencontentedithhattheyhavereceivedfromthegoldfishandthey“dbetternotbegformorethantheydeserved.”
Mandyremarkedithadangeroustone,“AreyoutellingmeIdon“tdeservethebestoflife?”
Locksensedsomething,“Don“ttistit.YouknohatImeant.Yououldneverbeabletofigureouthatthebestishenyoueresixteen.”
Mandymurmuredasifshehadbeeninadream,“HoIishtobesixteenagain,carefree.”
Lockcamenearertoher,andhuggedher,leavinghisheelchairbehind,“Thepointis,hateverhappenstoyou,fromnoontosixtyorninety,youillalayshaveus.”
Mandyburstintotears,“Ihavenothingexceptyouandthekids.Ifeelcold.Thisorldlooksatmeithviciouseyes.”
“Youcanalayscountonus,”Lockpromised,“Igiveyoumyord.There“snopartingofusuntilonedies.Staypositiveandcherisheveryminute.”
MandyleanedagainstLock“sshoulder,totallyforgettingheshouldnothavestoodupandsupportedhereight.“Ion“tfallforit.TheylookasiforriedformebutIguesstheyreallyenjoyedthemselvesseeingmealmostcrashed.”
shelookedatLockandassuddenlystartled,“Iasalmosttakenin.......Ishouldn“thavetoldthemhoIbrokedon......Iouldneverletthemreceivetherongmessageasifmylifeereajoke.”
“Don“toverrespond.”Locksaid,“Theyareyourfriends,andtheyshoedconcernsaboutourlife.Themorepatheticelook,thefunnieritouldbehentheyknohate“rereallylike.”
“Yes,someofthemdidtrytoruinmyself-esteemandnearlyconvincedmetopitymyself.Hocanonebesomean?”
Locksuggested,“I“vecomeupithanidea.hydon“teholdaparty?”Hehesitated,“Doesanyofthemhaveafamily?”
“No,noneofthemdo.Peopledon“tgetmarriedthesedays,Iguesstheyareafraidtogivecommitments.”Mandyformedasmileasthoughshefeltsorryforherfriends.
“So,thatsettleseverything.”Locksmiledback,“einviteabunchofkids.”
“DoeknootherkidsbesidesthoseinOscar“skindergarten?”Mandyasked.
“Oh,ofcourseedo,”announcedLock,“Thereareplentyofkids,Asian,Latino,andblackinthechildren“shospital.Thisillbeafund-raisingpartyfordisabledchildren,andmeasell.”Locksatbackintotheheelchairasquicklyashiskneesalloedtocarryhim,hichamusedMandylikehell.
“Sincetheyaresokind,suretheydon“tminddonatingsomedollarsforthegoodcourse?”Lockquestioned.
“That“sreallyniceofyou.Allofmyfriendsouldbeverythankfuliftheyareofferedachancetoshothattheyreallycareforthehandicapped.”Mandybitherlips,tryinghardnottolaugh.
“IsuddenlyrememberIhaveoneortoacquaintancesonthepress.”Locksneered,“Theyoulddietoseemeonthemoveagain.”